The Power Is You - Digging The Layers

Why do we dig the layers? Why did I ever start digging the layers? What was the purpose?

These are questions I have asked myself many times - Why? Why? Why?

The answer always came back - to free myself!

From what?

From everything I was attached to in this consciousness. It was one thing to "talk" about "spirituality" and another to "live" it. I had done all the readings, all the books by the current gurus of spirituality and yet I still could not "free" myself from my attachments.

So the layers started to dig.

The first layer - all the initial judgements. What someone should be doing. What love, light & peace meant. How to live in harmony? If only I could make the experience stop, then I would have it. I would live in complete harmony, no discourse, no more war, no arguments.

Nothing left to fight about. Nothing left to be right about. Nothing left.

So the layers started to peel away.

What are these layers? The layers of fear, with the ultimate layer, the fear of losing power.


Power has always been seen by me as the ability to "make" things happen. To force others to bend to my will. To take charge of any situation and firmly get it in control.

When I started to walk the walk of "being in the moment", this all flew out the window. To walk this walk is to walk alone. Others will think you are crazy. Others will scream at you that you must be planning this, doing that, getting your act together.

You keep walking.

The only way I know of being able to do this is to get quiet with myself. To see beyond the anger and right into the fear. When I look straight at the fear, then I see all my feelings, my emotions, my panic and anxiety.

Will everyone abandon me if I keep walking? What if I don't fit in? Where do I belong?

And the questions start to surface.

How much am I doing to fit in?

How are my words skewed in order to avoid anyone else's hurt feelings or causing hurt to be felt by another?

How many actions am I doing to hold the love & support of others?

How afraid am I of losing their love, support, respect and everything else that goes along with it?
These are questions that only you can answer from within yourself.

And then the final question to be asked -

Does any of this still serve me?

Is this my power, or is this my disempowerment?

How many times in life have we felt "let down" by others? How many times did we leave our happiness, satisfaction, contentment in someone else's hands.

As we dig the layers, it can be discovered - they never had it in the first place. We only "think" they did.

The Time Is Now - Let The Digging Begin!

Much love & appreciation,
Judy S
http://www.judys.ca/